Seems like this summer almost didn’t exist! Like, blink and it’s school prepping time. This week has been CRAZY with the reorganization of my “classroom” (dinning room, haha!) I have so far to go, but I am happy with my progress. The more we do this the more I understand what our needs will be!
I love me a Groupon these days. At the beginning of the summer I scooped a few – Repticon (which was a blast) and an alligator farm we haven’t gone to yet and a horseback riding adventure that I am taking an amazing friend on for her birthday.
Today I scored again with 10 weeks of karate! My youngest has been interested and I was looking for a local AND affordable place. This place is local and with the Groupon affordable. I expect she will love it and I will be trying to figure out how to keep her in it through the school year, but honestly I don’t know. There isn’t really room for that in the budget what with dental work needed, braces for the oldest, check up and shots for the youngest… and a slew of other things. Still, I am hoping that maybe we can make it a Christmas present or something.
I am super excited, we will have a ballerina and a karate kid in the house and I will have mom duty to run around and get them places. It is stressful, but it is so fun! lol I’m also really excited that she is excited, I have been looking for something she wanted to do and this is finally something she is looking forward to. I hope it will make her more likely to try the more affordable options like local sports or something!
The kids come first. That is that. This is a point that I could struggle with, but I am blessed by God to have a partner who has decided to live this way as well. I am not saying there are never times when we get selfish and desire more adult time together, I am saying that we work through those times understanding that we are loved and cherished and very important – but that our daughters come first. As the girls have gotten older, however, it has become a bit easier to steal a moment here or there. It started as a “date night” when after the kids were fed and taken care of they were set on auto for a few hours while we closed our bedroom door and watched a movie (or folded clothes) alone and uninterrupted. The other day they were at my parents house and my wife and I found that we had a few moments to simply be and we used it to go get snowballs. lol
It was fun, though I felt a twinge of guilt because treats are usually a family event. It was good to have a childhood moment shared only with her and the sky was beautiful!
I have met so many amazing people through this vast and wonderful thing we call the World Wide Web! I have made so many dear friends I hope to one day travel and visit! One of my most treasured connections, a woman I would have loved to have as a family member, recently sent me a package!
It was late and we were both tired. The whole day had been a bust on an emotional level. There was nothing wrong, nothing. We were both verbal about how blessed we were, we praised God throughout the day for this life we share and the fact that we share it. All day I was aware of how her existence makes me happier, lighter, joyful – and yet, I was reactive. I am sharp – quick and dangerous. Sarcastic humor can be hurtful, especially when it is humorless. This day was like that, the jabs were barbs. I didn’t even mean them, but they were flowing. It was like my bad mood and life were on this roll where life just kept setting me up, lobbing the ball perfectly across the plate so I could take a swing. I took them, not all but most of them. I was failing at holding back, sometimes it’s like that. She was doing a super job at squashing her anger or hurt and continuing to try to pursue a good day. That made it worse, I don’t know why, but it did. It wasn’t that I wasn’t sorry, I was – I certainly do not enjoy being rough on her. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to stop, I did – my heart and soul wanted to. I just couldn’t.
That night as she readied herself for bed I could see how my abrasiveness had done a number on her. This was a day where she absorbed and held us together and I truly appreciated that. I checked in, told her I was just in that place and that I had really tried to curb it. She said she knew and that she appreciated my effort, however failed. Then after she said goodnight and that she loved me I muttered, “Yeah? Are you sure you’re not just collecting all this awful and deciding you don’t love me?” (Or something like that, I can’t say for sure because it was a passing comment. Not really what I thought, but I am sure rooted in my subconsciousness by life.) She said no and kissed me good night.
Then, two days later after things have settled and we are better than ever. I have gotten over whatever scritch was irking me and she has brushed it all off she takes my hand and looks straight at me and brings up my comment. She says that she can’t ever imagine not loving me, but that if she ever was in a place in life where she didn’t realize that she was totally in love with me she would do the work and we would fix it. Leaving is not an option. She wants me to realize the magnitude of the commitment she made when we married each other and I do. I realize it because it is the same for me. While I know where I am at, and I know where she is at – it is so good beyond belief to hear it again. Maybe I shouldn’t need to, maybe I should just be able to rest in my knowledge. Maybe, but I am human and she knows that. She knows me in a way I don’t even know me, and I believe that I know her in that same way. It is so perfectly God sent that I can’t express my gratitude or elation and I may never be able to. I look forward to trying, though, everyday of my life.
I love you, babe. Thank you.
Two years ago I was driving home and I saw a sign at the local civic center advertising Repticon, a reptile show. I thought the kids would like it so I took them. I bought them each a teeny Red Eared Slider turtle and that was that. Over the last two years two of the three turtles died, but the last turtle has done so well. He is growing rapidly and he is fun and Lou ♥ just loves him. This year I scooped up a Groupon deal for ten dollars that allowed two adults and two children to go to Repticon 2014. (That’s a thirty-six dollar show!)
Repticon was this past Saturday and we had a blast! There was no where near the amount of breeders or animals, but there were nice people and all sorts of sweet babies! It was extra special because my wife was off and was able to come with us and Lou ♥ treated the family to lunch with her prize from the Summer Reading Program.
To be honest my girls are readers, so it’s not like we had to PUSH to get these things done. Still it was fun for them to feel engaged in a new way and to be rewarded for good behavior and habits.
I like to pre-read any book any books my kids read and I had picked up a bunch of graphic novels, but I didn’t read them. It’s been too crazy and I have to return them before I owe the world! lol From June to September tween and younger books can’t be renewed, so for now I am saying goodbye.
To be honest I have three pretty serious subject post that are dangling half finished… All that serious has created a wall of not-now-I’m-too-tired-to-blog feeling – and to get over it I figure I will put together a fluff piece! My favorite TV shows:
- Melissa & Joey – it’s my all time fav comedy right now. I love it so much, the timing and content is fab. It’s like teenage me and grown up me get together and hang out for twenty-two minutes.
- The Profit – reality TV at it’s most awesome. This show is awesome and it stars my most favorite man in the world, Marcus Lemonis!!! It’s finances meets smart and I love it so much I will watch it again and again as I clean or whatever.